Starting from scratch...

So, now I'm in the situation of having ended a long and arduous relationship that probably would have benefitted greatly from having deteriorated in the earlier stages of its existence. Be that as it may, it's over and I'm left with the task of starting from scratch and let me tell you it is not at all easy. I mean, the transition from back and forth emotions with one person for so long and then the end of that rollercoaster leaves you with an uncanny ability of not know which way is up sometimes. Honestly, how do I start over and how do I repair my heart and allow someone else to hold on to it?

Let's see what the Bible says...

<sup>Proverbs 5: 3-10

3</sup> For the lips of an immoral woman drip honey,
And her mouth is smoother than oil;
⁴ But in the end she is bitter as wormwood,
Sharp as a two-edged sword.
⁵ Her feet go down to death,
Her steps lay hold of hell.
⁶ Lest you ponder her path of life—
Her ways are unstable;
You do not know them.
⁷ Therefore hear me now, my children,
And do not depart from the words of my mouth.
⁸ Remove your way far from her,
And do not go near the door of her house,
⁹ Lest you give your honor to others,
And your years to the cruel one;
¹⁰ Lest aliens be filled with your wealth,
And your labors go to the house of a foreigner

Any thoughts...

I got a secret, I got a secret...

I've been caught in that position, as I'm sure most people have, of having information that is important to a friend's relationship, but you're stuck with the question of whether it's a good idea to tell or hold your peace. On one hand, I clearly saw my friend's girlfriend out with another guy, but without knowing any details, I spilled the beans to my friend and ultimately lost a friend. On the other hand, If he would have found out from another source and also found out that I knew about the situation, then I would have lost him anyway. Catch-22!!! So, should you keep it to yourself and let the poor sap put 2 and 2 together and hope he makes 4 or do you tell with the understanding that your friend may not like what they hear? Spell it out for me...

Sometimes I don't get it...

I mean really, sometimes I can't wrap my head around this whole love thing. I hate looking at statistics that suggest that married men are happier than singles or married men live longer, but in my opinion I think married men have learned to suffer in silence. It's not necessarily true that they are indeed happier, but seems like what they are taught to say just to keep the peace and in terms of living longer, you can have it if the alternative is dealing with someone unreasonable, unreliable and unrelenting. Don't get me wrong, the thought of love sometimes makes me feel like there's a purpose to this whole relationship thing, but when I think of the process that it takes to get there I think "lonely is the only other company." Is it really worth it? Enlighten me...